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My heart can't stand it anymore..
To much disturbance...
Every day now and then,  I hear the sounds of screaming..
Our family peace,  is crumbling,  shaking....
The feeling of being paralyzed , can't seem to do anything about it , just keep on watching...
I feel pain just by seeing it,  everybody is going on there own ways...
Just by watching, I feel suffocated.
I want to shut myself away..
Close my self..
Dieing now will save my heart,  but it's not the solution.
I only have God to calm my heart,  and my pillow to calm my eyes.

Please God take me,  before it crumbles in front of my eyes.
I know I'll get tired,  and I won't be able to take it.
and everything about my future will be on hold.

Ιυκα.