Still An Outsider

Again and again..

These feelings are lingering above me...

Maybe It's just me seeing too much into it but

I still can stand it..

They talk more and more , all I could do is watch with a staring eyes and a shattered heart..

All I could do is listen..

I try to talk the best I can but It's still not enough.

The subject turns around like a flipping coin ...

Sometimes,  I just know deep inside me that It's always like that,  nothing new,  It's always me different..

All the years that I knew the word friends,  it always end up in this way..

Me all alone with my fantasies..

That we are OK,  we're going to be together forever,  that we're close...

But that just me thinking..

The truth is that someone like me no matter how hard I try to fit in,  try to please them,  try to love what they like just to find one subject that I can talk about it with them ...

Someone like me is better off with nobody..

Someone like me is better off with no friends...

Someone like me Should just walk away...

Not because they're not worth it,  they really do ... at least one dose..

It's simply because that I won't ever satisfy what's inside my heart..

There will be walls..

There will be secrets...

There will be them without me....

No matter how I still enjoyed it,  every moment of it .

XOXO

luka