March 13, 2017

Winter Cicadas



A cicada's shell only hatches on winter....
" I want you to forgive me for having always placed all the blame on you.
I felt like I would fall apart if I didn't do so, and I was unable to tell you my true feelings.
When we first met, you never lay a hand on anyone even when you were angry,  never hit anybody.
I was disgusted with myself for having changed you.
I should have done this long ago....
I have made you suffer for so long.....
The reason I was unable to choose death until now was my own weakness...
I know that living on would only be a burden to you, but I lacked the courage to end it.
I'm sorry...."
crying in pain...
Tears running over like a hot water...
Screaming and moaning with agony...
Feeling like I've lost everything...


" I hope you understand my foolish love for you, which made me always wish to stay longer,  just a little bit longer,at your side..
But now, I do not regret that the time I was able to spend with you has ended,  though it lasted only a short while...
Because even in this age of winter,  the time that I spent with you was not a lie.
if it weren't this age,  then we might have had a longer time together, be together,  without being captive to our social status and surroundings. "
Sobbing...


Until that day comes,  I wish I could sleep as this cicada dose.......
Until an age like that comes,  we can be just like this cicada...
And Sleep.......


XOXO
luka

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